i should be asleep right now,
i don’t have school in the morning,
because i graduated over 10 years ago from college,
but i have work,
and while that work does not require me to be completely alert,
i will feel like shit for the rest of the day,
and it would put me in a self-hating cycle of being too tired
in the morning, then too awake later in the evening,
i won’t be able to break the cycle,
because it’s been how i’ve lived my life for the past twenty-plus years,
and i don’t see anything changing anytime soon
Fred Aiken Writing 