Fred Aiken Writing

Tag: death

Fair Ground

Jake considered himself an enigma wrapped in a four-leaf clover, drifting from one passion to another like the rain in the wind. But there was one thing he held dear, a secret love that he shared with few: the Renaissance Fair. It was a world away from the humdrum of everyday life, a place where he could be anyone, or no one at all. 

When his sister’s boy, Leo, came to live with him, Jake saw the shadow of loss hanging over the kid like a constant companion. Ten years old and already carrying more weight than most adults. Jake knew he needed to do something, anything, to bring a spark back to Leo’s eyes.

One crisp Saturday morning, they set out in Jake’s battered old truck, the kind that rattled and groaned with each mile. Leo sat quietly, staring out the window, his small face set in a contemplative frown. Jake didn’t push him to talk; he just drove, letting the open road and the promise of adventure do the work.

The fairground appeared like a mirage in the middle of nowhere—tents billowing in the breeze, flags fluttering, and the distant sound of laughter and music. Leo’s eyes widened a fraction, a glimmer of curiosity breaking through his stoic mask.

“Ever been to one of these?” Jake asked, trying to sound casual.

Leo shook his head, but there was a hint of intrigue now. They parked and made their way in, greeted by knights in armor, jesters juggling, and the sweet, smoky scent of roasted turkey legs wafting through the air.

Jake bought them both wooden swords at the first stall they passed. “Every knight needs a weapon,” he said, handing one to Leo. The boy took it, turning it over in his hands, a small smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. “Careful now,” Jake warned, “you don’t wanna poke your eye out.”

They wandered through the fair, Jake pointing out the different crafts, the blacksmith hammering away at molten iron, the weavers creating intricate tapestries. Leo listened, absorbed, the fair’s magic working its way into his heart.

At the jousting arena, they found seats on a rickety wooden bench. The knights charged at each other, lances clashing, and the crowd erupted in cheers. Jake stole a glance at Leo, who was leaning forward, eyes bright with excitement.

“You know,” Jake said, nudging him gently, “your dad loved this stuff. Used to talk about coming here with you one day.”

Leo’s smile faltered for a moment, then grew more determined. “Really?”

“Really,” Jake affirmed. “He’d want you to have fun, to be happy.”

They spent the rest of the day immersed in the fair’s wonders. They watched a falconry show, tried their hand at archery, and even joined a drum circle, the rhythmic beats echoing in their chests. For the first time in a long while, Jake saw Leo laugh—a real, genuine laugh that seemed to lift the weight from his small shoulders, if only for a moment.

As the sun began to set, casting a golden hue over the fairground, they sat on a hillside overlooking the scene. Leo leaned against Jake, exhausted but content.

“Thanks Uncle Jake,” Leo said quietly, his voice barely a whisper.

Jake felt a lump in his throat but managed a smile. “No problem, brave knight,” he replied, ruffling Leo’s hair.

They watched as the fair’s lights began to twinkle in the dusk, a magical world glowing softly against the encroaching night. For the first time, Jake felt like they were both on a path to healing, however winding it might be.

The journey home was quiet, Leo dozing in the passenger seat, clutching his wooden sword. Jake drove steadily, the road ahead clear and open. He didn’t have all the answers, but he had this day, this small victory. And sometimes, he thought, that’s enough.

not a great one

a friend of mine is dying,
i don’t think he’s going to make it,
neither does he,
nor do the doctors,
this isn’t much of a poem,
but i suppose i’m not much in the mood
to write one at the moment

not so fast

“Watch where you’re going?” she said. 

But I did. I always do. I could have sworn I knew exactly where I was going. At least, I thought I did. At least, I could have told you with absolute certainty that I was going to the front desk because they had my possessions. Posthaste. Don’t ask me why the front desk had all my belongings. It’s a long story.

But this woman, this-this-this enchantress, this siren, this goddess of vapor, appeared out of nowhere. Like literally nowhere. I don’t know how it was physically possible. And I’m pretty sure in order to run into me she had to have broken a few laws of physics. 

“Sorry,” I said. “I didn’t see you there.”

“Well, I was.”

“Which is why I apologized.”

Despite her good looks, she snarled. She wore an expression that’s typically reserved for comic book villains. This is not the story of how I fell in love at first sight. For one, that’s just not a thing. But also, this stranger that appeared out of nowhere and who I accidentally bumped into on my quest to retrieve my belongings from the front desk had the look of a woman that had just committed murder on her face and she wanted nothing to do with the rest of society at the moment.

“Yes, well, keep it moving. I don’t want to keep you from bowling over other helpless women.”

“I feel like you’re being a bit hyperbolic. It was an accident…”

“And what? Are you one of those desperate creeps that needs people to accept their apologies before they run along with the rest of their day?”

“No, but I certainly won’t be talked down to like this.” I know I’m being sucked into a confrontation. It’s a confrontation that I don’t want to be a part of. I have things to do, as they say. People to meet, palms to grease, and old ladies to fleece. None of which is an actual saying, but an uncle used to say that to me all the time, and it just sort of stuck around in my head.

For a brief moment, I check my pockets and realize that my wallet, phone and keys are all missing. For a brief moment that was longer than I care to admit, I forgot that I was heading to the front desk to collect them and thought that the enchantress standing before me, the one trying to goad me into a fight, might have swiped them from me. Before I can come to my senses, though, I accuse her of taking my things. I accused her of being a pickpocket. 

“A pickpocket? You think I nicked your crap? What could you possibly have that I would want.”

“A car. A little bit of money—”

“All of which I have no need for.”

“Then I don’t know, maybe you took them just for the kicks. I know some people just take things that aren’t theirs for the adrenaline rush.”

“An adrenaline rush?”

“This whole process will go a lot quicker if you just confess rather than just repeat everything I say to you.”

“Well, I can assure you that I am in no need for an adrenaline rush. I would need a functioning brain and heart to feel an adrenaline rush.”

“What are you saying?”

“I’m dead. I’m saying that I’m not of the living.”

“But that’s not possible.”

“And yet, here I am.”

“But I just ran into you.”

“So you admit it!”

“That was never in question. Of course I did. I apologized for it.”

“Say that you did it on purpose.”

“But I didn’t.”

“But I know that you did. Remember? I’m dead, I can read your thoughts.”

“I don’t think that’s a thing. I don’t think dead people suddenly take on the power of telekinesis.”

“Well, no, but you’re thinking of telepathy. Telekinesis is when you can move objects with your mind. But because I’m dead and thus not a physical entity on this plane of dimension, moving physical objects isn’t really something I’m concerned with doing.”

“Now you’re explaining being dead to me? Will your affronts never end!?”

“I’m sorry. I feel as if we got off on the wrong foot.”

“I’d say.”

“My name is Hubert. It’s a pleasure to meet you.”

“The name’s Ida. I’d say the same, but I think we’ve already met.”

“We have?”

“Yes. I guess you don’t remember. I suppose people not only live differently, but they die differently too. You and I were in a car accident. A terrible car accident.”

“That’s horrible.”

“Indeed. Unfortunately, there were no survivors.”

“I suppose there weren’t. Would you…? I’m sorry if this is a bit too forward, but would you like to go get a cup of coffee?”

Hubert and Ida floated along to the nearest cafe. Neither of them said a word the remainder of the night. Hubert acquainted himself with his afterlife, but for some reason he couldn’t remember any of his life. While Ida could think of nothing else.