DRUNKEN APOLOGY; TRYING TO FIND MEANING WITHOUT BEING MEAN

i apologized to you that one time,
thinking i’d never have to do it,
ever again,
so what do you mean?
are you trying to say that i’m going to have to
keep apologizing until i stop making the same damn
mistake over and over again?
because if that’s the case,
then i don’t know,
i just don’t know,
but i think i might have to give this whole thing
some serious reflection,
though maybe i’ll just play cod and drink vodka mixed with monster energy drinks
to get a good buzz going