i made a mistake and
tried to hold my breath
when the climate changed,
in hopes that i might adapt
to what was to come, but could not be seen,
though i didn’t realize my adaptation
had already been done before
maybe life wouldn’t be that difficult
if i planned it out
and came prepared
and sat down to communicate my feelings with
friends and family
while adjusting to change, growth, and development
rather than cursing things i don’t understand
while locking myself in my room
and refusing to come out
because there’s loud noises constantly going off outside;
there’s nothing wrong with wanting to embrace silence
cut to the moment my fitbit registers me walking
12k steps without leaving my room
without a single step outside
Fred Aiken Writing 