if the apology comes from a sincere place,
somewhere deep inside of you,
then maybe we can chalk this all up to a misunderstanding,
maybe even laugh about it
one day, though i know you might think that’s unlikely,
while you lay there bleeding out,
like a cigarette on the side of the road
that pedestrians kick about or avoid,
and maybe if you don’t make it through this ordeal,
then i dunno,
but i guess i’ll be the one to owe you an apology
myself
i apologized to you that one time,
thinking i’d never have to do it,
ever again,
so what do you mean?
are you trying to say that i’m going to have to
keep apologizing until i stop making the same damn
mistake over and over again?
because if that’s the case,
then i don’t know,
i just don’t know,
but i think i might have to give this whole thing
some serious reflection,
though maybe i’ll just play cod and drink vodka mixed with monster energy drinks
to get a good buzz going
if there was something for me to apologize for,
then yeah,
maybe, i dunno, but yeah, maybe i would,
i guess, i mean, sure,
i would apologize,
but we’re not living in that alternate reality,
so i don’t have to worry about having to apologize,
so let’s just move on, alright?
Fred Aiken Writing 