Fred Aiken Writing

Category: Short Story

wasted art school degree, though not for naught

2.5 years studying art and i still can’t draw. or paint. or sculpt. i’m not all that great with a camera either. if you asked my parents, then they would tell you that i wasted my money. not their money, i should point out, because they flatout refused to fund an art degree because they had never seen me, you know, make any art.

their point was valid, if a little hurtful.

but my parents and art professors didn’t think about the ace up my sleeve. you see, after struggling as a broke and hungry artist for nearly 3 years after graduating, working one deadend part-time job after another just to pay for rent in a rundown apartment building and going nowhere, i finally bucked up and sold my soul to the devil!

might not be my proudest moment. i know i certainly won’t brag to the grandkids about it. but now i’m making a pretty decent living. despite inflation and the cost of living, i finally put a 30% down payment for a nice piece of land upstate where i can build a house specifically tailored for my brand of artwork, which, as you might have already guessed, is quite messy. 

too messy, really. i guess you say the neighbors were complaining. but that was only when i could hear them. and ever since i sold my soul for art talent, i must say i haven’t done enough listening. but it’s all the better, i would think. or it will be. i assure you.

just help out…

“you’re initial reaction might be to hate the person you’re helping. you will certainly be repulsed by them. they are an odd creature in this universe. one that can’t be understood. but you have to move past those impulses and help them—”

“but what’s the point? why do we do it?”

“honestly, i don’t have a good answer for you. nothing that would satisfy those questions. in a way, i guess it makes us feel superior. there’s a bit of narcissism in helping less fortunate species. though i also have my conspiracy theory as well.”

“oh yeah, what is that?”

“we help humanity so much that they become dependent on us. it’s attrition through kindness. over time, humans will become less and less able to fend for themselves. they’ve let us take care of their civilization so they can attend to their own solipsistic wants and desires; they don’t even realize it’s happening.”

“i just don’t understand why we just don’t kill them all and be done with it.”

“we’ve done that before, remember? we’ve gone to different worlds and conquered one species after another. and they always resist. as futile as it was, they resisted. despite those species losing in the end, we still lost some of ours. i think upper management got tired of the loss of life on our side, and figured the kill-them-with-kindness might lead to better results.”

“i don’t know. kinda sounds pretty dumb.”

“either way, it’s an experiment. we’ll see how it goes, and then i imagine the eggheads will figure something else out.”

“then we kill them all?”

“yeah, i guess. if you want to be blunt about it…”

spectral picture day

i didn’t want to haunt. i wasn’t born to go around and be a disembodied entity without a physical body. 

but i also don’t think i was born just to be an ephemeral fleck trudging along in an uncaring corporeal interface with two thumbs and a half-smile. 

i kinda miss picture day.