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Diss Disagreement//Water for Gold

Daily writing prompt
What public figure do you disagree with the most?

Most of them. That’s a cop out. But I’ve also been told by my wife that I’m a contrarian, so it’s fairly easy for me to disagree with just about any opinion out there, and public figures are usually the worst about sharing theirs. Especially since a lot of public figures seem to share their opinions about topics they know very little about with a sense of entitlement and superiority that is just ripe for backlash and general ire.

Though the main offenders of my dislike are politicians. I don’t like that they can be so easily bought. I don’t like the fact that most of them sound exactly the same and do the same thing and are influenced by lobbying groups so frequently, despite all of them generally saying how the way things are isn’t working. I hardly see any difference between any political party or politicians. I don’t like the fact that there’s a minimum age requirement to hold certain political offices but there’s no maximum (personally, I don’t think anyone over the age of 65 should be in office). I don’t like that most of their arguments are nonsense when broken down and analyzed. I don’t like that political figures don’t have to have any critical thinking skills, especially if they’re willing to sell their vote to the highest bidder. I don’t like how over the past 50 years politics have become more of a circus than a representative governing body.

There’s probably a lot more to dislike about politicians. There always is.

The main problem, I feel, is that the argument seems centered around the size of government, which makes no sense. Small governments and big governments grow and retract with the flux of time and its population. The main concern should have also been whether the government is responsible and held responsible for its and its players’ actions or inactions. But funding efforts seem to always be directed at limiting or completely demolishing any form of oversight by governing officials, both in state and federal levels. Maybe not all states. I can only really speak to the state that I live in, really, since that’s the one I’m most familiar with. Though from the news that I occasionally hear, it does not seem like other state politicians and representatives are much different.

The main culprit, the public figure that I guess I really don’t agree with, is Barry Goldwater. That also kinda seems like a cop out, since obviously he’s very much dead. But I find that he holds a good chunk of the responsibility of why politics have become so polarizing.

Granted, I’m not nearly old enough to have ever voted for Goldwater, nor did I even live in the state in which he held office–though he did have a bid as the 1964 presidential candidate that he lost in the end to LBJ. But I do feel that it’s often times the losers of elections, especially executive branch elections, that are often looked over in terms of their influence on the larger scale and in future campaigns.

The main aspect of Goldwater’s campaign that I find particularly invidious and consequential to modern politics that has sullied the waters was his primaries acceptance speech in which he said, ‘extremism is no vice’. I think that spoke volumes as to the type of candidate he became, and became the rallying cry on which modern politics has hung its mantel on, on both sides of the aisle.

But, like I said, it’s kinda punching down to disagree with a dead guy. I mean, there’s also plenty of other dead guys to disagree even more so than Goldwater. There’s the usual suspects of mass murderers and political bullies, both dead and alive. But there’s already been plenty of discussion and analysis over how and why those public figures were disagreeable.

I think more focus should be placed on the legacy of Barry Goldwater on how he failed future generations by ushering in modern extremism in politics.

In terms of actual living public figures, then I guess I’d have to say I mostly disagree with Joe Rogan, Dane Cook, and Elon Musk. The two former for being comedians that aren’t funny. I know Joe Rogan has a podcast that’s pretty controversial, or so I’ve heard. But I’ve never actually listened to it (mostly bits and pieces, but nothing substantial), so I can’t really speak to what’s either offensive or not when it comes to what he does on it. But I remember listening to Joe Rogan and Dane Cook’s comedy in the late nineties and early 2000’s, and their humor and jokes were always so very bland and unoriginal to the point of offensiveness.

And in terms of Elon Musk, well, I guess I could also add Jeff Bezos and Mark Zuckerberg and Warren Buffet on that list too. I’m just not a fan of people that were capable of accumulating wealth and then, as a society, their ideas and opinions somehow matter. I especially don’t like Musk, because unlike the other rich people I listed, he’s never actually had an original idea or business his entire life.

Elon Musk is a serial idea swiper, and he’s mostly ever been capable of using his wealth to accumulate companies from people that had much more vision than he and making it appear as if he founded the damn company. He also has that petty energy of a petulant grown-man-type toddler that always needs to whine and complain, even though his accumulated net worth is more than some countries’ entire GDP.

But, as with everything else in Elon Musk’s life, he’s not unusual for a rich guy. I think if you throw a dart at a list of billionaires, then you’ll hit one that’s squandered the usefulness of their wealth on petty, simple-minded projects and endeavours. Like Bezos weird, overly phallic rocket that went to space, but only barely. Or Musk’s acquiring Twitter to normalize his social media addiction. Or Zuckerberg doing whatever the hell he thinks he’s doing with virtual reality. Either way you split it, it just seems like rich people, because they’re so damn rich, act on a different level with their money than the rest of society. Because they have more than what one reasonable person could do with in a lifetime, they all seem to spend it and throw around their money for the dumbest of reasons, and no one bats an eye because, well, they have too much money so society somehow deems them smart or witty or cutthroat or any number of descriptors other than mostly pretty lucky and entirely problematic.

So, yeah, I think I don’t really like these sorts of thought exercises. My wife tells me that I’m too negative, and that I’m prone to be super critical and judgmental too quickly. Which I can’t really argue with. My default stance on things, no matter the topic, tends to be contrarian and argumentative. I’ve been trying to work on that, but, well, like most things, it’s a work in progress. So, maybe my disagreeing with certain specific public figures says more about me and what I’m going through than it does about them.

Choosing and Being//A Career Minefield

Daily writing prompt
What is your career plan?

Currently, I’m a coffee roaster. Or at least that’s what I get paid to do. I also write poems and stories and music reviews, though none of which do I get paid all that much for, but that’s not really why I write. I just like to write. And then, super-duper part-time, I trade futures contracts. Mostly S&P and Nasdaq futures, but also other commodities.

The main reason that I don’t trade futures or stock options on a more full-time basis is that I find the work incredibly boring. It’s just looking at charts and watching little green and red rectangles go up and down and sideways. So, yeah, I don’t make much money doing it part-time, but it pays for some extra stuff, like beer money and some fancy coffees on occasion. But the other reason I don’t do it on a more full-time basis is that I don’t have the risk tolerance to make it my only form of income. I mean, some traders put up thousands of dollars per trade, whereas I typically put my stop-loss so tight that I’m barely risking $50 per trade. All-in-all, it’s just not a particular passion of mine, so I probably won’t pursue it to the extent that it could be considered a career path.

But coffee roasting is kinda my ideal job. I fell into the coffee industry by accident, though. I came out of college while the economy was still reeling from the effects of the Great Recession, and a majority of companies were not hiring. Or if they were hiring, they were paying minimum wage and yet still requiring a bachelor’s, or sometimes even a master’s, which I’m pretty sure a lot of companies are still doing because insanity typically never truly goes away in any economic transaction to a certain extent.

The only place the would hire me was an entry-level job as a barista. The hours were not super consistent. The tips were okay. But overall, the culture was nice. I got free coffee. And my coworkers were all super friendly and great to be around. So, I couldn’t really complain too much. I mean, other than the fact that it didn’t pay a living wage, and so I had to take on a second job just to make ends meet.

That second job was working at a pet hotel taking care of people’s dogs and cats while they went on vacations that I couldn’t afford. I enjoyed working with dogs and cats because I didn’t have to interact with people at all. But the allure and romance of working with animals loses its appeal after a blind German shepherd diarrheas all over you and it’s the very beginning of your shift so you have to just rinse it off as best you can and work with the overwhelming smell of it for the rest of the day. Also, over the years, it’s become a huge pet peeve of mine that people refer to themselves as a dog or cats ‘pet parent’ rather than owner. I think it’s incredibly dumb, and it’s mostly just a marketing gimmick so people will spend more money on their pets.

Either way, I kinda waffled throughout my twenties between going full-throttle into the coffee business or going into the pet hotel/care business. I worked my way up at both jobs as a supervisor, and then a manager for a fancy pet resort that was expanding in the area that I lived in. But the insurance was crap, and the culture and coworkers wasn’t all that welcoming. So, instead I took a job as a manager of a cafe.

What I learned was that, other than the product/service being sold, being a manager at any company sucks. I dealt with interpersonal issues between coworkers, complaints of customers, dogs having to be rushed to the emergency vet after getting bit by another dog in which the owner didn’t disclose that their dog had a habit of doing this at other facilities, and also having to rush a barista to the hospital after they got burned by ridiculously hot water. I had very little time off work, and the time I did have off of work it always felt like I was thinking about work, and then of course I was technically always on call whenever there was an issue, morning, noon, or night. While the pay for being a manager was alright, I never thought it fully compensated appropriately for just how much of a mental and physical time suck that it was, and I discovered that while I can manage people relatively efficiently, I do not like the job.

And then Covid hit. Covid changed everything for most physical retailers and restaurants. Somehow we were all being called “essential workers” and yet still being paid subpar wages. Also, from my experience, customers became much more combative during the pandemic. Within a month of the lockdowns, I was desperately looking for a way out of managing the cafe I was at. And that’s when the opportunity to roast coffee came in.

It happened to be a roastery that didn’t have a brick-and-mortar location, so they only sold coffee online, which during the pandemic meant business was booming. When I became their newest roaster, I oddly enough happened to be the only employee there that had more than 5 years of experience in the coffee industry. It was a serendipitous choice. I found that I enjoyed working in a warehouse environment away from the public and not interacting with customers on a daily basis. Plus, I got to drink as much coffee as I wanted.

I did, however, take a slight pay cut at first. But as I’ve moved up from roaster apprentice to now the company’s head roaster, I was able to more than make up for the initial loss in income. Plus, it’s no longer mentally taxing to the point where when I leave the warehouse to go home I don’t bring the work with me, other than the coffee. That I am able to take home with me in overabundance.

Right now, my role as a coffee roaster is ideal for what I’m looking for in a career. Stable hours, a field that I’m passionate about, and having very little to no one to answer to so long as the coffee keeps coming out good. But in terms of the future, I have no idea. To a certain extent, I feel a bit pigeonholed into remaining in the coffee industry. Even though I never anticipated or planned on being in coffee much longer than a couple of years when I was a barista, now it’s been well over a decade, and I’ve devoted quite a bit of time and energy learning and developing within the field.

So, who knows. Maybe the next step is to start working on the importing and exporting side. I have enjoyed the few times being able to travel to some coffee-producing countries and meeting farmers and producers, along with a host of other workers associated with moving coffee along the trade path. But working on the trading side of coffee would mean having to pay attention to little green-and-red chart patterns to guess at what the market is going to do, and I’m not super thrilled at that possibility.

The other possibility is forming my own roasting and coffee business. I don’t like the idea of owning my own business either, but it would more than likely be the most profitable in the long run…maybe. Though the idea of creating another coffee business in an already overly saturated market when most experts are predicting that coffee’s landscape will look drastically different by 2050 due to climate change does not seem like a promising prospect. Seems more like a gamble.

But, if everything goes according to what climate activists and televangelists are saying/predicting, then I imagine there won’t really be much of a future and I won’t have to worry about what career I’ve made in the apocalypse.

Live from the Comfort of My Couch

Daily writing prompt
What was the last live performance you saw?

I’m a bit ashamed to say that it’s been a good long minute since I’ve seen a live performance. Granted, now that I think about it, I did work the local farmer’s market last year, and there was a random Saturday in which a busker played some lovely flamenco styled melodies.

But in terms of concerts that I actually paid to go see, then it’s definitely been a long while since I’ve done any of that. Probably college. I know there were a few orchestras that I went to because my girlfriend at the time, who is now my wife, was the main stage manager for the small theatre our college had. So I hung out in control booth with her, mostly making out in between her various responsibilities. But I was physically there at the performance, so I’ll count it.

Then there were all the plays that I saw while in college, again due to the fact that my girlfriend was a stage manager for a majority of them. All of this was well over a decade ago now. So, yeah, like I said, unfortunately I haven’t been to too many live performances in quite some time.

Which isn’t to say that I wouldn’t have wanted to. There are plenty of performances that I’ve wanted to see live over past decade. I guess the reasons why I haven’t outweighed any motivation to actually go to a live performance. Either the tickets were too expensive, it was too late at night, or there were going to be a crowd of people there and I don’t like big crowds because they make feel incredibly uncomfortable.

The older I’ve gotten, the more I’ve realized I don’t like being in large open spaces where there are a lot of people, nor do I like doing much of anything that disrupts, or majorly disrupts, my daily routine. In a way, I guess one could say I’ve become a curmudgeon in my mid-thirties.

Actually, through this exercise of thinking about live performances that I’ve been to, I did remember that I did go to a small concert about six or seven years ago. I went to a Smile Empty Souls concert at a small bar in rural Georgia. The band sounds as dramatic as you would think, but they happened to be my brother-in-law’s favorite band from when he was a teenager, and we didn’t know how long they would be still touring. Or maybe it was because they didn’t tour all that much in the south, and so we figured we would go and see them on the off chance that the band didn’t come back any time soon.

After a quick Google search, I did confirm that Smile Empty Soul is still around and still touring. I’m not a huge fan of their music. It’s mostly depressing emo rock where the lyrics all read like they were written by a sad teenager wrote because their parents got a divorce when they were seven and they never processed it psychologically. But on occasion, I do find myself still listening to Smile Empty Soul for nostalgic reasons. Mostly due to the fact that they were my brother-in-law’s favorite band, and unfortunately he’s no longer with us. So, my wife and I will find ourselves on the anniversary of his death, loading up Spotify and playing a few of their songs in our own private mourning concert to remember him by.

If I had to choose what sort of live performance I’d like to go to next, I think right now in my life I’m at a point where the venue would need to be super small, kinda intimate, and the music would need to be jazz. And probably none of that electric new age sort of jazz, but that jazz that sounds raw and sentimental at the same time. Something like Coltrane or Davis or Monk. But unfortunately there aren’t really any jazz musicians that come through where I live, so I’ll probably just stick to listening to them in the privacy of my home and car by myself.